This Could Be All About Just Letting Go.

So my firstborn went back to school today. Pre-K, my big girl. I am feeling proud, sad, scared, happy, delighted, nervous, horrified, sick to my stomach, overwhelmed, sad, happy, and excited. I'm OCDing it to the max right now but trying to enjoy the fact that my baby is going to have a wonderfully fun experience.

Also. Sometimes a song just grabs you. This is what I heard on the radio as I was sitting here panicking about letting my baby go to school and not knowing how to deal with the accompanying anxiety and terror. I think it's about letting go, and holding on, but I need to know when to let go and when to hold on.

Well, this could be all about just letting go 

Or this could be all about just holding on 

I can't get my feet off of the ground 

I wanna run but I don't know how 

Can You reach down here and pull me out 

Can You pull me out?  

I wanna scream but there's no sound 

I wanna fly to You somehow 

Can You reach me here and pull me out 

Can You pull me out? 

And now I feel like I'm treading water 

And I'm hardly real, I'm just trying harder 

To make my way on the earth by standing still 

Well, this could be all about just letting go 

Or this could be all about just holding on 

I can't get my feet off of the ground 

I wanna run but I don't know how 

Can You reach down here and pull me out 

Can You pull me out? 

I wanna scream but there's no sound 

I wanna fly to You somehow 

Can You reach me here and pull me out 

Can You pull me out? 

Not a moment too soon, You will be my rescue 

But tell me how long will it take? 

I can't get my feet off of the ground 

I wanna run but I don't know how 

Can You reach me here and pull me out 

Can You pull me out? 

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To lighten the mood of this post: Here is my usually-gorgeous child, posing less-than-gorgeously for her first-day-of-school photo:

What would you call this look? Nonchalant? Unimpressed? Stroke victim? Completely nonplussed? Meh? 

Anyway. Sniff. My kid is a school-kid again.

Bring on the rhinovirus, bitches.